Posted by Rzip on September 13, 2001, at 21:49:26
Just want to share some personal thoughts...
I think the news coverage is getting to me mentally. I was watching ABC (Peter Jennings) this afternoon, and he had a psychiatrist reporting that people who have no personal relations to the tragedies can still be psychologically effected from just watching the news. Immediately after hearing the psychiatrist, I began to re-examine myself and my own mental well-being. I guess the insight-oriented therapy sessions are good investments afterall:-) Initially, this afternoon I accessed that I was fine. Besides, if I call up either of my therapists, they will urge me to seek counseling again. I do not mind the counseling, but it's the financial aspect that I am still re-building from.
This brings me to tonight...I just heard about the arrests of the ten men, the "second team" that was apprehended in New York airports this afternoon. That troubles me in terms of my sense of security, of being violated, and just my general psych. I guess I just don't understand how the terrorists could be so brainwashed for a second attack and maintain their continual resolve for suicide. I mean I need a suicidiologist to explain this: what determination! It just defies human nature to be so determined to end their own life. In anticipation of any rebuttal, I just want to make it clear that I am not sympathizing with the terrorists; I just need to understand human beings. I would say that this past half-year as I work closely with my therapist, half the battle is understanding human psych as a whole. As a result, I gain insights into my own being. Tonight, as I sat watching the news, and being wary of becoming vulnearble, I am just starting to struggle with understanding of all this.
As I am typing to you, I have my TV turned off, and am listening to some soothing love songs instead.
Overall, I feel raw and agitated, so I thought this medium is appropriate.
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