Posted by Else on August 4, 2001, at 15:12:11
Doctor Bob, please, I have had it with this... troubled individual nicknamed gldngodss or something like that.
> > It's simple really. On antidepressants or anticonvulsants I don't fully realize how badly my life sucks. So I just deal with it in a relatively effective, albeit deeply bored way. When I am off, the horror strikes me. Right now I am on Wellbutrin but it's not a normal AD. Anyway. I don't want to numb myself to make my horrible life seem OK. So now what? When I am off, like right now, everything seems so hopeless. I don't want to be a zombie but I don't want to kill myself either. I don't know what to do. I just want to be myself and feel both alive and happy at the same time. Is this even possible? I'm so depressed. I feel like I did last year before I tried to kill myself. But things are OK. I get along great with my co-workers. I think I could even be friends with them and it is so hard for me to make friends but I can't do it. I'm too scared to be intrusive or something like that. It's all so f****d-up. Why do I bother? I just want to be happy but it's so hard.
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> Then do something about it! Only, the sick think everyone is demented but themselves...have you ever sat back and noticed that.
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> I am sorry all that money you spent on your breast augmentation turned out to be a 'nasty infectious flop', some people like pendulous bananna breasts. The doctor should of given antibiotics to clear that up, it would of saved you all that damage... but your cellulite...If I were you just get your teeth fixed, that is the first thing people noticed anyway and your face, well, there is ,I think, what they call 'dermabrasion' for those deep acne scars.
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> After, you take care of that your self esteem will go up, and you won't have to kill yourself or even think about it.
> Remember, STEP by STEP > > >we are here.
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> xox~goldengoddess
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