Posted by SLS on February 1, 2024, at 22:50:21
In reply to Re: How do you define complete remission?, posted by Hugh on February 1, 2024, at 10:27:55
> I've only experienced very brief periods of complete remission. During my remissions, my anxiety disappeared. So did my anger, my massive self doubt, my feelings of being overwhelmed, my feelings of dread, my feelings of inadequacy, my self loathing. During my complete remissions, I found it astonishing that I could ever hate myself. For several months before one of my remissions, I'd been considering trying to get back together with a former girlfriend. Whenever I would think of contacting her, I would come up with several reasons why I shouldn't. During my remission, when I thought of getting back together with my former girlfriend, I would only think, "Yeah, I could do that." My remission ended before I acted on this.
>
> During my remissions, it felt good to be alive. I still have hope that I will one day be able to achieve a long-term, and perhaps even a permanent, remission.Perhaps the most pursuasive reason for continuing to live is that I knew the excitement of living within a properly function brain and a mind free of a psychic pain, free of cognitive slowing and memory impairments. To experience remission several times for no more than three days was enough of a carrot on a stick to pursue indefinitely. *Uncertainty* is the key to avoiding suicide.Therein lies hope.
Grasp your memories of remission, and they will prove that when you respond to treatment, life is worth living and waiting for. It must be understood than memories are state-specific. I suggest finding a short essay that explains this.
- Scott
Some see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing.
poster:SLS
thread:1122316
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20230117/msgs/1122320.html