Too much.

I think my writing here has been counterproductive over the last few days. Too much anger. As silly and juvenile as it sounds, I wanted to bring everyone else along with me to remission - or something close to it. I went about it the wrong way. However, I am beyond certain that there needs to be a major shift in focus if there is to be any chance at all of something like that happening.

I felt the need to accomplish this quickly because I didn't anticipate posting very much at all from now on. Engagement rings, weddings, buying houses, and the usual stuff people do in the absence of depression.

I might relapse 10 seconds from now. If I were to relapse, I would no longer have access to the clear thinking and functional memory that enabled me write all this stuff. Depression is a walking death - a hideously altered state of consciousness. Even as I write this, I am praying to God that I never relapse. My relapsing is not outside the realm of possibilities. However, my chances of maintaining remission are much better if I keep taking my medication exactly the same way every day for the rest of my life.

My achieving remission involved 4-6 week trials managed by a person who administers treatment for a living - my doctor. What I see on Psycho-Babble is the most under-informed and un-intelligent self-medication for which there is little potential of achieving remission. Things here have evolved over time in a way to afford people a reduce chance of getting well than what we saw when this site first opened 25 years ago. I have no statistics to prove this, though. It is just recollection. I could be misremembering. There is an archive to years worth of history of posts on Psycho-Babble. It would be interesting to review them to see how the collective mentality of the Psycho-Babble community evolved over time.

Lots of names disappeared as a result of the LP debacle. However, for many who continued to post, a sizeable number are gone. People often leave the Psycho-Babble community when they respond well enough to treatment. They simply have no need and no time - engagement rings, weddings, buying houses, and the usual stuff people do in the absence of depression.

Look at the big picture. Research the world of clinical psychiatry rather than the minutia of brain biology that currently has no clinical application.

Concern yourself more with discovering what works for you and concern yourself less with how things work.

Some see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.

The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing.

Too much.

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