Posted by Christ_empowered on August 17, 2022, at 20:48:43
ugh. its that time again...
more anxiety, sometimes bordering upon panic. more looping thoughts/ruminations. sleep is off...too much, but spread out in 2 and 3 hour increments. and...
honestly, part of what -gets to me- is how ungrateful I am during times like this. my family is incredibly good to me. I'm labeled and such, but I don't have to deal with what other people with my labels are often subject to (long story...its not that I'm amazingly special, I think of it as being blessed and fortunate).
I take 20 Abilify. now and then, gabapentin, but even baby doses make me feel unable to concentrate and oddly...more emotional, in a dumbed down kind of way? -not fun- so, I generally don't take it.
ssri drugs soothe agitation, but then...I'm overly-soothed. lol. Prozac made me feel oddly apathetic, and then within that apathy...less stable (not truly -unstable-, though).
maybe just...give up? I don't know the data on depression within the context of a more severe label. does it...stop? get better? I don't even know my exact label...
and that's a big problem, because I can't be the only individual with...this "affliction," right? Right. Not that I'm trying to fit into a dsm-label, but...
for -obvious reasons- , it'd be helpful to know what to expect, especially when junk like this hits.
wellbutrin was OK. got jittery on 400mgs way back when, dropped it.
I avoid cymbalta because of previous providers. maybe just...wait for my mood to perk up?
blah. seriously considering amino acids. maybe DLPA?
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