Posted by linkadge on August 3, 2022, at 21:28:11
In reply to Re: Retrying escitalopram » linkadge, posted by Jay2112 on August 3, 2022, at 21:02:40
To me effexor is puts me into a kind of military mode. I.e. I just power through problems and don't process them emotionally AT ALL. It makes me very focused on earning money and 'moving forward' with my life.
The problem is that, I am almost robotic. I don't feel anything.
Don't get me wrong. There are times in my life where this mode has been sorely needed. I have been an 'island' so to speak and wanted to keep it that way.
This past spring (out of the blue) I get hit with the most overwhelming sense of loneliness I can describe. This is something I've almost never felt before. Perhaps this is an early mid-life crisis. I don't know.
Basically, my depression keeps morphing. It's like it's an entity in and of itself that desperately wants to explore the darker side of life.
What I think is going on is this. I have never been able to process emotions in a healthy way. Unfortunately, the meds haven't really helped with that. So it's like my brain keeps swinging between numb and driven and 'emo' and paralyzed.
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