Posted by undopaminergic on August 24, 2021, at 8:04:32
In reply to My Disappointment here + My early years, posted by SLS on August 23, 2021, at 8:42:46
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> This is a repost of something I wrote to Lambdage earlier today. I would like to thank him for his logic and sage insight:
>Not to be critical, but it's "Lamdage".
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> Lambdage:
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> > I wish you well. Always have. There aren't so many posters anymore.
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> Thanks.Thank you for another story of your adventures. For some reason, I find them inspiring.
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> The lesson I hoped everyone would learn from me is that there is always hope - and that you never know when you will strike gold with a life-changing treatment. A rebirth into a new awareness is worth working for. Please - everyone - don't give up, especially when you already have. I had an advantage, though. Every now and then, I was given a brief demonstration of what life could be in the absence of depression when I experienced brief remissions.
>I have that advantage as well. My (hypo)manic episodes demonstrate that I can feel good. I've also had temporary remissions with some drugs, such as pramipexole which transiently resolved even my stubborn anhedonia.
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> It was an amazing coincidence that I saw his name on one of the doors while sitting in the waiting room for my very first visit to a psychiatrist. I was accepted into the research program at Columbia Presbyterian / New York Psychiatric Institute in 1982. All they had to work with were MAOIs, tricyclics, and lithium.
>Really only those? What about antipsychotics like chlorpromazine, stimulants like methylphenidate and amphetamine, barbiturates and benzodiazepines?
> Later, I was one of the first people in the U.S. to be treated with experimental serotonin reuptake inhibitors and releasers in 1983.
>Releasers? Like amphetamines?
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> I was very, very angry to discover that my moods and thoughts were beyond my control to work through, and that feeling profoundly depressed and non-functional as a human being was biological rather than psychological. I would have gone to psychotherapy three times a day if it meant not being tethered to a chemical in order to live life normally.
>It can seem purely biological, when your condition responds to drugs, but there is always a two-way relationship between the mind/psyche and the brain.
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