Posted by rjlockhart37 on May 8, 2020, at 22:58:15
In reply to Re: a back glymps, posted by undopaminergic on May 8, 2020, at 7:49:43
i think real depression, its more than apathy, it's like ... being in bed. When grandmother was in a nursing home, back in 2005, i was there in unit with her visiting. Her memory, she had dementia, and we used as many medicaitons. You can't stop dementia. But there was this older woan who came out of her room, she walked in this hopefulless manner, filled with ... can't describe exactly, and she sat down and just stared, and one of the nurses came over to confort her, she said don't ... there's nothing you can do, she did lay on the nurse and cried, it was in this manner like pure hopefulness, that everything was gone. It was just that seeing that pure hopelessnes in her, crying with no emotion but hopelessness. She was around mid-late 80s. That was most thign i've seen. It's just....you feel pure hopelessness, that nothing will help, everything is done with.
See her cry in just this pure hopelessness, it was really painful too see.
I've had similar, that's why, but i really ... when you get that down, no support group, person, anything feels it will help. Hopelessness.
I keep inside, it's a hidden emotion i never tell anyone. Exept this board, under this screen name.
I think in those kinda of cases, most powerful antidepressant, like parnate, even that sometimes does not help. Like rake in some dexamphetamine which they don't use much for severe depression. Plus the crash, then worse depression.
Apathy i think is numb pain, or just you feel....apathy, see greyness, like being in a abandoned house in the middle of the woods on a grey rainey day.
but thanks at least im not alone, thanks you for response :)
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