Posted by Radish on July 28, 2019, at 19:53:16
In reply to Re: parnate 10mg helping mood after 3 days » SLS, posted by TH on July 24, 2019, at 20:03:22
Had an appointment with psychiatrist the other day. He says I will stay on 20 mg for now until my next appointment perhaps.
He did some weird and incompetent impromptu therapy (more like a lecture) with me. Told me to believe in myself, to stop being so serious, to stop caring about what others think of me, to let go of whatever happened in my past that Im holding on to. I dont have anything in my past that I can remember that Im allowing to hold me back. Its NOT helpful for me to believe Im continually at fault for allowing my crushing depression and anxiety. He also said that Im allowing the medical and pharmaceutical establishment to profit off me by taking meds and not just uhh..fixing myself I guess? Basically everything he said implied my mental illness is my own fault and something I can will out of existence if I try hard enough. This makes me feel worse, not better. These concepts of reversing negative thought processes and changing your beliefs until youve fixed yourself creates further shame when you cannot get them to work for whatever reason despite trying really hard. thats why CBT in the past made me feel worse and lost credibility with me. I am upset with my doctor and confused. I dont know what to do. Its damaging to hear these things from an authority figure.
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