Posted by TH on June 1, 2019, at 17:04:22
In reply to Re: It all seems pretty futile, posted by rose45 on June 1, 2019, at 8:00:48
It's understandable that your friends would suggest homeopathy in much the same way as I would suggest medication; we're biased towards what we know and what we have personally found useful.
I can appreciate how unpleasant the idea of being dependent on medication is. As you're coming from an alternative background, it must be a doubly disagreeable. I imagine it must feel in direct conflict with your views and values, and the inner conflict from that must add yet another layer of agitation and anxiety.
I would suggest it may be helpful in some way to view your illness like a physical disability. Whether this is technically true or not is the subject of debate, but nonetheless it may be a useful lens through which to view your struggles. Much like someone who is bound to a wheelchair or has epilepsy, this illness may not be something that can be cured. Your struggles are valid, and the only course of action may be to do whatever you can to manage the condition and improve your quality of life. That might be daily meditation or it might be medication. It might be both, neither, or something else entirely. The important thing isn't whether it is a cure, it's whether it is an improvement. If medication can make your life more bearable, it's worth considering. You don't have to feel guilty about relying on a drug if it helps. You don't deserve to suffer unnecessarily.
For me there has been a lesson in learning to accept life as less than perfect, and accepting that there are limits to what I, and what everyone, can achieve. Despite having a fairly privileged life in many ways, this illness has been a tough hand to have been dealt. There's been a period of mourning for the loss of everything I thought life could be, and from the ashes of that I've begun to be able to move forward in whatever small way I can. Ironically it's only been with medication that I've been able to face this.
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