Posted by Christ_empowered on October 19, 2018, at 18:58:58
my counselor keeps hinting that i need one. the shrink (he's gone now...clinic, they come and go) said two thumbs down to -any- antidepressant, because...you know...I'm "severely Bipolar I" and all (note the sarcasm).
blah. i do think depression, probably more severe, is the main problem here. but are antidepressants really a valid option, long term, for...anyone?!?!
ive reconciled to my parents and they take good care of me. lol. really grown up, i know. they're not rich, but they're "well-to-do," it seems...so now, I'm "that Schizophrenic, from a good family" in the community.
point there is...poverty was rough. it wasn't just the lack of stuff, because i wasn't -that- poor...it was stigma, social isolation, pressure...unending, non stop pressure. welcome to late stage capitalism, I guess (?).
now...my parents are -not- rich, but they have enough status and resources that my life is...easy breezy, basically. I live in places I don't have to pay for. I drive a vehicle that I don't pay for. and I find...
my "depression" is less severe, and...different, too. its more about...knowing that no matter how miraculous my recovery, I'm labeled and stigmatized. no matter how healthy I am, I lost much of my youth to poverty and madness. and its about...
sensing real limitations, with no way out. growing up, at long last? its about churches that focus on married couples and families, and don't -deal- with "mental patients" often...
and about "friends" who showed pity when I was down and out, and seem a tad bit...jealous, maybe even angry...now that I'm supported by "genteel" parents.
blah. I don't know, honestly. i have an older (70s) Born Again Christian friend who forever encourages me to get a job, wear a smile, and...get out there! i know it sounds lazy, but...
is it so wrong to not work, if working means being picked on and bullied, all for low wages and 0 upward mobility?
i know this isn't really "meds-related," etc., but..c'mon. there's a lot more to "severe mental illness" than skillfully combining pills.
thanks. :-)
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