Posted by rjlockhart37 on May 17, 2018, at 22:05:16
few days ago i went through a bad insomnia replase, in 2012 i wrote here that had insomnia for 3 days and had wierd effects during that time. I had the fan on, and the humming of the air conditioning, and when the fan was on or just ... the 'hum' of it i would hear someone talking..... thinking it was my mom or someone, then when i turned the fan off, it all stopped, its really frighting for a while because i would hear people talking or fighting but right when i turned the fans off, it would go away..... i'm not not known to hear things that are not there, my main problem is cognitive issues with concentration and depression.
But just a few days ago....that same thing i had in 2012 happened again, when i would go to sleep, i would stay awake, i would go into a deep state of sedation but i would not go to sleep, then right when i hit the dozing off stage, i would wake back up and have an anxiety attack because i could not sleep, i would go into a deep silence period but i could not pass unconscious state. When this happened in 2012, it was bad, i had manic symptoms not because of the sleep, because i was forced for days to keep going without any sleep, and my mind increased dopamine levels to confiscate, and it made things really intense. Even olanzapine at 20mg, it had no effect, finally i prayed to higher forces to make it go away, it did finally. I've been having to take a russian drug for anxiety because my doctor really doesn't do much, they don't take me serious, so i have to alternate to other treatments, there's the russian med, then others. It sucks not having a doctor to call when im in distress. Another person also interferes, so its the only thing i can resort too. I never tell them whats going on, pdoc doesn't need to know about other medications i take because they don't have bad reactions to my current ones
But it was really scary because i didn't want the same episode in 2012 happening again, i would go into a light sleep state, but then wake up and have anxiety attack, and stay away for 3 days. Closing your eyes for hours but nothing happens, no sleep, and then feels like your going insane
anyways i slept many days after that happened couple days ago.....hope this doesnt not happen ever again
everything can change like that, and all these years go by so fast, but nothing lasts forever
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