Posted by Lou Pilder on August 7, 2016, at 21:09:01
In reply to Lou's response-false hope » swim, posted by Lou Pilder on August 7, 2016, at 15:13:39
> > I am at the dead end and out of ideas, even Nardil has stopped working. I'm currently taking no meds as they don't help anymore.
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> > I just forced myself back to work full time in hope to get better by doing something, but this hasn't helped either. My friends tell me to just wait and it'll get better, but i know it wouldn't as i have tried to wait it out two times before without meds in 13 years of being sick, both attempts lasting almost for an year but nothing happened, still depressed. I think about ending my life every day, but it's astonishing how strong human survival instinct is to rather choose life of suffering instead of death. This means i will probably not die very soon so i'm f*ck*d.. something needs to be done here, but i don't know what as i already mentioned before.
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> > I can see many people are against psychotropic drugs, ..give me a better option, i'm all ears.
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> > I can't stop wondering if it was ten years in to the future, like 2026, we will have more drugs available, maybe something would work, or 2100, when there is advanced nanotechnology available for us on the time of technological singularity closing in, we might have beaten the illnes by then, but now we are f*ck*d.
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> > I never thought that my life is going to be like this, even though there is lot of death and suffering in this world, it shouldn't be like this, basic emotions should still exist, the ability to feel joy and sadness, this makes us human, taking away persons ability to feel is not an honest fight. Something needs to be done here, it can't go on like this much longer.
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> > You might notice that there is nothing informative or educational about what i just wrote, but this wasn't the idea, instead i just wanted to express how i feel about life and my current situtation at the current moment. I can see many of us reaching out for help even though we know there is non available, like me.
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> > Anyways, what are the guidelines in countries like the US in case of treatment-resistant depression? I live in a small country where doctors don't use off-lable drugs, so that makes my situation even more f*ck*d up. Everything is so f*ck*d up that it makes me lough some times. Maybe i need to order illicit Ketamine again, though i got hooked last time i self-medicated with it. Ou one more thing, i just got out from my local hospital intensive care department for overdosing on Nardil hoping it will make me a bit better, i also co administered other psychotropic agents with it like Zoloft, Levodopa/Carbidopa, 5-htp and a six-back of cold beer. Every once in a while when i got enough and want to feel better right away, I tend to experiment with most dangerous drug cocktails i can find on the internet, but it doesn't work most of the time.
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> someone,
> You wrote,[...I am at the dead end...meds don't help anymore...I think about ending my life...give me a better option...I can't go on like this...there is no help available...].
> The quacks that think that giving you mind-altering drugs will set you free from depression add to your depression with life-ruining conditions, addiction and death.
> The drugs are chemical nerve agents used in insecticides and worm killers and rat poison and used in the commission of mas-murder. They go to your frontal lobe and dehumanize you. The black box warning is the beginning if sorrows, yet today, they offer a hope, but to many it is a false hope, like from what you have posted here.
> I would not give you false hope.
> Lousomeone,
I would not give you false hope. for there is healing that comes from the rays of the Sun. These rays are beyond the understanding of those that are in the darkness. You can come out of the darkness and into a marvelous light.
The drugs that you have in you have poisoned you. Poisoned you with the filth of death that has taken you away from the green fields that you used to know. But the Water of Life can cleanse you from the poison of death in you from the drugs.
You see, the drugs have taken you away and more drugs could cause you to go that way into outer darkness. But you could get back to where you once belonged.
There are two trees that you can eat the fruit of. The tree of life, or you can eat the poisoned fruit from the tree of death. I can lead you to the tree of life. And you could drink the Waters of Life freely.
Lou
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