Posted by Lou Pilder on June 25, 2016, at 10:20:36
In reply to Update, posted by g_g_g_unit on June 25, 2016, at 9:02:55
> I wrote a post a couple of weeks ago about how I felt I had exhausted my options, and was suffering from a strange mix of severe agitation/dysphoria, alongside dysautonomia and akathisia.
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> I'm currently in a public psychiatric ward as a voluntary patient, and am also being reviewed by a neurological team.
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> The neurologist did observe my walking and said it looked fine to her, so go figure -- I still have a really bizarre medley of symptoms like feeling pulled down by gravity, feeling off balance when I walk (forcing to me shuffle or limp), feeling like I'm in a boat etc.
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> I asked the neurologist for a tilt table test but she said no. They're doing an MRI and EEG.
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> I've met with the psychiatrist -- a professor -- who has suggested 6 courses of ECT.
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> It's a difficult decision because as much as the medical team are implying my symptoms are psychosomatic, how can they possibly guarantee ECT won't worsen things.
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> On the other hand, every minute I'm awake is total psychic agony. I am allowed to leave and be seen by neurology as an outpatient. My parents have also taken out private insurance, which means in 7 weeks I can go to a decent clinic and try rTMS. However, I know for certain that I won't survive for that long -- the suicidal ideation has become too overwhelming.
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> So I will most likely start ECT Monday and just hope for the best, I.e. that it doesn't make anything worse, and prolongs my life long enough to go inpatient somewhere else in August.Friends,
It is written here, [...every minuet that I am awake is total psychic agony...the suicidal ideation..overwhelming....
Here the tragedy of this site that allows you to advocate drugs that could cause what you see here, is a travesty of justice. And worse, some of you will want to defame me and the Jews that could cause others to discard what I write here that could have prevented this tragic soul from having to want to kill themselves. Oh, the horror of this site.
Lou
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