Posted by Mary GG on June 14, 2016, at 15:06:30
In reply to I don't think I have any options left, posted by g_g_g_unit on June 11, 2016, at 13:23:55
Please know there was absolutely nothing "dramatic" about your post. Nothing.
I would never wish suffering on anyone else but there is a strange comfort I get knowing that I am not the only one who feels like they are running out of options. The most heartbreaking thing for me is when my doctors actually shrug their shoulders at me at this point. If the medical professionals are throwing in the cards on me then how on earth do I keep fighting?! But I do. I am suicidal and I still fight. I refuse to accept this as a standard of life. And I refuse to to believe just because I have a million and one things wrong with me that I should have to live pain and misery every single day.
I don't know if this will help you at all but sometimes when I feel I cannot go on I remind myself that as odd as all my conditions are someone else is going through this. And if I give up who will force these doctors to keep looking for answers? Maybe some little girl somewhere is just now starting to go through what Ive gone through my whole life. And maybe just maybe if I don't give up and I push these damn doctors to continue to search for answers then maybe her pain will be less someday.
The other thing is I find it much easier to fight for other people's lives than my own because I am so broken. But if I look at my fight as beneficial to others I will never ever stop fighting.
So let's do this. If not for ourselves for someone else. And one day I will be healthy again and realize and know in my heart that I am worth fighting for.
poster:Mary GG
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