Posted by Fiftylager1 on February 27, 2016, at 14:02:46
In reply to Re: Hey everyone.. Newby here » Fiftylager1, posted by SLS on February 27, 2016, at 13:38:34
I am terrified of the side effects. I've had some horrible reactions on anti depressants which they keep trying to push on me. I'm scared of being a zombie like on serequel and Depakote where I can't even drive. I'm scared of gaining a lot of weight. I still haven't taken weight off from medications I tried last year. I have major issues with my body. I'm scared of losing more of my already thin hair. I have kids and a boyfriend who witness these side effects and they don't understand. When I feel I can't drive due to feeling so doped up they think I'm being lazy or exaggerating. My boyfriend disagrees with meds in general. He met me when I was slightly hypo manic so he met me in what he thinks is the good side of me. He thinks meds have made me worse but he doesn't understand that state was temporary and has no clue that when I hit a bad low all I want to do is die. He's very mentally healthy and just thinks people need to learn to cope and not stress over things. If he knew how truly messed up I am I doubt We'd even be together. I live for my kids, that's it. And even then I suck as a mom half the time. I just pray they never suffer this.
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