Posted by Tabitha on February 21, 2016, at 16:08:11
In reply to Can people relate to this?, posted by Meltingpot on February 21, 2016, at 11:45:43
> Hi,
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> I'm just wondering if people can relate to this. Medication does help me but nowhere near as much as it did in my 20s when I felt as though I was completed cured and that depression was just a thing associated with my youth and not having a purpose etc.
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> Since 35 I've had horrible experiences with depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety etc and the drugs that took me to heaven in my 20s seemed to take me to hell instead.
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> I am grateful for the medication I take, the Seroxat and the Zyprexa but I've never really felt cured this time. I'm still aware that this thing is still lurking underneath.Hi. I can relate to not feeling cured. I tend to get a huge improvement on new meds, then slowly relapse. I feel really hopeless when it happens, particularly if I didn't notice it creeping up. I have never tried going back to meds that used to work, instead I keep getting switched to new ones. I really fear running out of options!
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> I want to get hold of Nembutal as I want it there as an option should I ever feel that low and nothing was helping. It may sound ungrateful but I want the reassurance of knowing that if ever things got that bad again I have the option of a quick and peaceful death.
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> I'm just wondering if anyone can relate to this.
>I can relate to having the impulse, but please understand that what's happening is you have gone past "suicidal ideation" to the next step, which is "making a plan", and you should inform your doctor. Please don't get the pills before telling your doctor what's happening.
poster:Tabitha
thread:1086353
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