Posted by SLS on June 26, 2015, at 16:10:35
In reply to Re: Synchronised Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation, posted by Lamdage22 on June 26, 2015, at 14:37:56
> Hmm. I am just pretty disillusioned.
You are doing much better than I did.
I was disillusioned after only nine months of unsuccessful treatment at Columbia Presbyterian in 1983. I thought doctors knew everything about my illness. It was then that I first set foot into a medical school library. After a few weeks of research, I came to the conclusion that I was deficient in dopamine. I asked my doctors for Wellbutrin (which was investigational at the time) or bromocriptine. At the time, they believed depression was due to a deficiency in norepinephrine. So, they refused my request and literally laughed in my face. I left.
> I only get frustrated with my hobbies if i dont make any progress.
Are you a perfectionist by any chance? I used to be very bad that way until a doctor impressed upon me that my perfectionism would make me more resistant to treatment.
> Validation is what i miss the most!
I understand. After years of struggling and seeing doctors who had only words of encouragement, I finally met one at NYU who described my condition as being "horrendous". I cried because I felt vindicated and validated. For some reason, I had not reacted so emotionally ten years earlier when the NIH doctors told me that I was "very sick".
MI really sucks.
- Scott
Some see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.- George Bernard Shaw
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