Posted by Chinaboy on March 29, 2015, at 23:33:43
In reply to Lou's request-pkalzdok » baseball55, posted by Lou Pilder on March 29, 2015, at 20:19:16
With a very careful analysis of my mind, I found out that my addiction to psychotripic drugs arises from an inner desire to achieve controling over the difficulties.
I'm mainly fixed on drugs that give me an immediate uncomfortable feeling such as antipsychotics and mood stablezers. If I can withstand that awful feeling and even turn it into something positive, I would feel some control over the world and a sense of completeness. However, the result is repeated failure, so I need to do it over and over again. Besides, me thinking of some other antidepressant like SSRI while on Nardil comes from me wanting to beating the residual depression 100%.
I don't think this is purely OCD. I do need to see a therapist. However, there is a great, great lack of qualified therapists here, so all I can turn to is nothing but meds. Again, I want to know if there is any drug I can try to help me soothe this strong irrational desire?
With the above being said, I feel greatly relieved
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