Posted by rjlockhart37 on February 19, 2015, at 19:10:31
In reply to Re: topamax, posted by baseball55 on February 18, 2015, at 20:34:53
well.....alot of my artchives are on the search engines, but im going to tell againg what happened, so.....but i don't want to go to personal about it
facts
1)started adderall when i was in middle school till i was 19, someone i live with told the doctor that i was abusing it, then i got pulled off....
2)got prescibed it various times after wards, but it came to a point where someone i live with told me i can't take if i live at their house, (im writing this in 3rd person terms for privacy)
3)went to various rehabs that was hell and it did not work for me, i just played along with the program to get out of it, and from then on went to psychatric hospital for paranoid things, they put me on zyprexa, and i did have paranoid, scared to leave the house, and thinking there where spirits in the house
4)current doctor, as long as i live with here....i cannot take any kind of psychostimulants, it's a crude way, but i've managed to function on bipolar medications, but they make it difficult to focus....
5)ok back to the simple terms, i can't tkae stimulants while i live at home, due to past abuse and this person has told me many times i can't take psychostimulants while im living here.....so i just said ok, and they put me on the current meds.....the paranoia stages i've had where intense...thinking everyone was part or new world order, and harrassed me on the roads and while i went into stores.thats all......
i don't want to post this, and let everyone see, but thats just....what happened
lamictal i have noticed makes me spacy, but im not hyperactive.....but it's difficult to focus on bipolar medications.....
but it has been a bad time, during all these 5 years to learn how to think and cope without medication to help, i went idle for years from 2010 till now......and now im finally trying to reprogram my mind to be able to function ...i've improved on some cognitive thinking, and writing, but it's been not so good, but im tired of sitting and being afraid, it's kinda like learning to run with a foot that causes me to trip when i run, learning to run with a feet that are diffrent than others.....find out a diffrent technique to run without tripping
and learn how to think.....and ... in a way it's good, because adderall when wore off it left me feeling washed out, depressed, tended to take another one to avoid the depression wear off period......it's not like that how i am right now, i don't have washout periods, but still focus is difficult
r
not a scholar but understand distress.....
"unheard pain, is the told through good company"
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