Posted by topdog on February 15, 2015, at 4:36:06
In reply to Re: Medical conditions know to cause depression!, posted by ed_uk2010 on February 14, 2015, at 18:14:41
Hi ed_uk 2010!
I'm 30 by now, i have been suffering for total of 12 years, it hit me like lightening, during the second half of 2002. In six months i got severely sick and never recovered, the illness took over my life. In the next five years i tried all common meds available of every possible group without any help. In the end, when i was out of options and very close to checking out, i was able to acquire Nardil from UK and have been on it ever since. Though one time i had stop because of the drugs unavailability to me- this was the worst 6 months i could ever imagine possible to be felt by a person.
I have understood that only thing that takes away the pain and makes my life somewhat livable are the drugs that strongly elevate dopamine levels. In my country stimulants are not prescribed for depression, but i have had a change to try Modafinil for few months which also removed the main symptoms.
I know if i go back on Nardil i will never stop it unless i am forced to or a better med comes out.
The positive effects the Nardil produces give me energy and will to go on and make me feel somewhat good or even euphoric in a way, but it's not the real joy, freshness and wide emotion spectrum i felt before the age of 18, the time i got sick. I still remember the smell of the fresh grass and the feel of the ocean breeze in spring and all of the emotions i could feel back then. Waking up, feeling refreshed and excited for the new day and how the sun felt in hot summers day, The music felt alive, the colors where vivid and everything was interesting and exciting, i felt alive back then. now i am a depressed zombie or on Nardil a drug induced euphoric emotionless living organism ..just venting i guess.I would appreciate any advise what tests to take! They cost me almost nothing so i would take as many as rational, to find the cause (if there is one).
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