Posted by Tomatheus on December 31, 2014, at 20:26:52
In reply to im tempted to stop..., posted by b2chica on December 31, 2014, at 18:59:01
B2chica,
It's really too bad that you're in such a dark place right now. I know that when I go through what are probably similar dark spells, I don't so much see the point in continuing on with the treatment of my affective psychosis. Sometimes it seems like any kind of change, even something that might lead to disastrous results and/or put my life at risk, would be welcome when my treatments aren't producing results that I would consider to be anywhere close to adequate.
But when I look back on some of the decisions that I've made when things were looking dark for me, I thank myself for the times when I decided to hold back and wait for some time to pass instead of doing something that might put my long-term well being or even my life at risk. I thank myself for the sensible decisions I've made pertaining to my mental health treatment, even when such decisions didn't necessarily produce the best results, because I know that at least for me, sticking it out with the treatment process is my best hope at reclaiming the functionality and vitality that I once had. Sometimes the treatments that we utilize for the treatment of our mental problems don't come anywhere close to living up to our expectations. Sometimes the lack of success we may have with treatment can lead us to question whether the struggles that we're going through are worth enduring. And perhaps even more importantly, the struggles that we go through in our day-to-day lives can seem all the more insurmountable when we're engaged in a fight for the clarity and peace of mind that a lot of people take for granted. Is all the struggling that we go through worth enduring? When I'm in a place that may be similar to the dark place that you're in, the answer to that question seems like it can't be anything other than "no." But usually, we only stay in such "dark places" for so long. And when we do emerge from the darkness that sometimes seems to engulf us, we tend to thank ourselves for the sensible decisions that we make when in a darker state.
It would be my recommendation that whatever you decide to do as far as the pharmacological treatment of your disorder is concerned, do it for yourself and for your own well being (including your long-term well being). I certainly wouldn't recommend deciding what to do medication wise to please somebody else on this site or even to please me. I would advise doing the best thing for yourself and to act in a way that you'll thank yourself for later on. Finally, if you do feel like you need help from a professional, I would urge you to seek out their assistance. While you might find interacting with Psycho-Babble members to be helpful when times are rough, remember that it is those who provide mental health treatment who are best qualified to advise you in a time of crisis.
Please take good care of yourself.
Tomatheus
Has a chronic psychotic disorder with long-standing difficulties with energy and concentration
Taking Abilify & supplements including vitamins B3 & D3
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