Posted by b2chica on December 31, 2014, at 1:52:41
with the meds that i've been on in the past. you would think that would be better off now.
i still have no friends... well my best friend that is a guy that my DH hates (because he's a guy) and i cant spend time with.
My T, who keeps canceling on me. my pdoc who is barely available...ever.my DH is an a44hole, and some days i want out just becuase i cant deal with his borderline issues and anger.
ive dropped like a rock and see no purpose in life and never want to do anything again.
right now i am wishing someone would lock me up and i could just stay there and veg fro a year or so.
i HATE being So tired but NOT being able to sleep. i HATE sleeping in, cuz i forget my meds and it messes up my whole day.
i still have STRONG urges to down ALL the 'extra' meds that i have in the cabinet.
i want to walk into the nearest lake and slowly sink and exhale till there's nothing left.
i want to slice out my heart.i just.... and it goes on. i need to just sleep.
-b2
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
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