Posted by poser938 on March 2, 2014, at 13:10:43
"You don't know what real problems are!"
"You're spoiled!"
"You're not trying hard enough, just try harder and you'll feel better."
Or my dad, when speaking to extended family members, tells them "Michael has just given up on life."These are the things I hear from people in my own family. And family members who do say they understand I'm going through something that us much more than I can deal with, they don't say a word to those who do demean the hell I've experienced.
Often, when a family member has a severe physical illness, their whole family seeks ways they can help. When it comes to my severe mental illness, many in my family treat me as if I'm just lost and confused. I even had a chance at getting my mental health back a few years ago, though it involved risk with taking incredibly high doses of Cyproheptadine. And it involved going to multiple doctors to prescribed it. It was a very complicated situation, but my dad decided to tell me "Your situation isn't that serious, so, I'm not going to help you with getting the Cyproheptadine you need. In a way this was understandable, because of the high doses I needed. But what is not understandable is ow, a few years later, now that "the sh*t has hit the fan", and I mention to him that I can't live sith this serious illness much longer, his advice to me is that "you are spoiled.", and "you don't know what problems are!"
I often wonder how my life would be different if my family took my situation as seriously as familys do when a family member has Cancer. Often, victims of Cancer are told how amazing and brave they are.
And it makes it even more difficult that im almost unable to describe things, such as how i feel to my family, because my thoughts and emotions feel so inhibited. This lets my family cop out even further, and pretend like my problems "arent real problems."
I feel that things would be much better if I had an illness that would take my life once my body has had enough of it. But I could live into old age with the serious mental health problems I have today. Though I'm sure it will take some years off my life.
I know I'm quite irritable, but I still understand right and wrong very well. And I understand when I'm getting a raw deal....And then the whole Mental Health Industry also treats those with sever mental illnesses as a joke. But that's a whole other story.
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