Posted by rjlockhart37 on February 19, 2014, at 22:29:39
i've been thinking, mood stablizers calm the nuerons, and level them out...and they do calm hyperactity in the brain, and let the transmission be more stable, but with dopamine degregulation with me, now it's hard to feel what focus means, lamictal and zyprexa cause passiveness in the mood and cognitive thinking....opposite of adderall....opposite of stimulation, stablization to something that didnt need to be stablized, because it wasnt bipolar at all, it was clearly ADHD, i know this, i know my own mind better than the doctors.....crazy
the doctor is treating me for bipolar disorder, which i extremly detest, but i can't argue....they have it documented that i have abuse amphetamines of any kind, which is true, yes, that's why i went to meth, having that euphoria of just seeing methamphamine crystals in a little plastic baggie....thats what happened, i was ripped off stimulants, and then persued methamphetamine....these doctors are so arrogant in their opinion, they don't see the big picture....in 2010 i was ripped off vyvanse, and was put on zyprexa 20mgs, nuerontin, depakote, all the doctors believed i was not ADD and the hyperactivty was because of manic states, let me explain a bit more, when stimulants where disconined the stable calm feeling from amphetamine that treated my add was removed, and i became hyperactive in my thoughts, i had disorganized speech, pressured, my whole mind fell apart, but they saw it as manic states, and put me on heavy mood regulation meds....when the whole point was so obvious...that's what happened, now im so stablized it's called being on cloud 9
topamax is usally given for migrances, siezures, and mood disorders....and throwing 3 mood stablization meds for a condition that is clearly ADHD, it's a hard concept....and i can't get to another doctor until i get my own stable income, and get away from this current state at home....
if they only listened to me, even thought i was/am clearly a substance abuser, when other people can get prescibed amphetamines at high doses with anything they want from some doctors, i have to take the credit of the abuse i had... and not get to this point of being over medicated for mood disorders....which is not present, it's being viewed that way, it's ADHD with small mood imbalance, and depression.....
well maybe a doctor will hear about this....and document my case....
i havent been prescibed topamax....but if i do, ill be willing to take it....if it zones out the bad moods, and irrating things....sign me up, and write the script....
but has anyone heard of something similar to my case?
r
not a scholar but understand distress.....
"unheard pain, is the told through good company"
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