Posted by uncouth on June 15, 2013, at 20:20:57
In reply to Re: Depression or existential despair? So lost..., posted by sigismund on June 15, 2013, at 6:38:32
it was via a combination of a lot of things, and im not sure i've even really "done" it. maybe if anything, more accepting of reality?
this particular thread was during low point. but there may be future postings in the year after that when i discovered PEA and how it helped "resolve" my depression...except it really didnt, it made me crazy, i made terrible decisions, gained 50lbs in months, and got metabolic syndrome cuz i was also on zyprexa. and ended up in rehab. which was good experience, but when i got out, there was another 1.5 years of joblessness, anxieties, crazyness, and then near the end, insanely bad sleep quality that caused total daytime drowsiness and nonfunctionality. oh and more crazyness/hypomania. eventually though through that i managed to quit smoking and eventually got diagnosed with sleep apnea, which after a ton of fits and starts is being treated about 85% now.so i dont know. i would say combo of the right medications (im still on the same merry go round though), more activity, joining a church, getting sleep apnea fixed, putting to rest my obsession with the girl i was obsessing about when it sunk me into despair, and much greater physical activity, like, once i was able to sleep halfway decently, i started swimming, lifting weights, hiking, almost as if it was a full time job (cuz i dropped to part time consulting). so ive felt better cuz i look and physically feel nbetter
but im still on i think last count total of 10 medications for across th board medical issues? im 33 now. still minimally/marginally epmloyed, though at least now trying to work on a startup of my own when concentration affords. dating/having sex which is a definie change (oh, the transdermal testosterone def helps too). and if you'd met me in real life you probably wouldnt' think anything was the matter, if anything, you'd say wow what a attractive smart dude. if it was a good day/week/month...but like my friends at church for instance who see me almost weekly for the past two years, they have seen me regularly, during good and bad times, and have definitly seen me all over the map health and mood and sanity wise.
also since its satuday and im on my way out, im a bit casual in my writing delberately, but compare this post, with my original one in this thread. whihc one shows more insight, and even erudition and intelligence?
tells you something about the intensity of thought that exists sometimes in states of acute suffering...and the lack of it when things are ok enough that you are too busy "living life".
p.s. also im no big fan of SSRIs anymore...
currently on (may forget some:)
strattera 80
buspar 90 + melatonin 5mg time release (see other thread about this combo which i do like, though we are also using high dose buspar for mood and anxiety independently)
vyvanse 50mg -> 30mg (trying)
phentermine 37.5
victoza 1.8
namenda 10mg
gabapentin 1200-1800 (mostly for sleep)
metformin 2000mg
edarbi 40mg (hypertension)
axiron 2-3 transdermalmay have missed some. oh and plus a ton of supplemenrs/vitamins
i think though exercise, like intense exercise 5 days a week, ws really the secret. most of these are for the metabolic syndrome effects which hopefully i will eventually stop and for attention/focus
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