Posted by porkpiehat on May 30, 2013, at 11:47:16
I like the feeling I get from AP's (low dose combined with AD's) freeing me from the thought that I am at the mercy of the thoughts and desires of others, that people are always against me.
It also frees me from aversion of and anxieties around sex.
However, Risperdal made me feel weird and panicky and almost psychotic after a week or so.
Abilify made me feel so distant from people that I wondered if I was a psychopath. It also ratcheted up my drinking and smoking behaviors and made exercize very difficult at only 2 mgs. I largely ignored my existing family and friends in favor of fishing and drinking and hooking up.
since coming off Abilify I've been in the worse depression. A little better by doubling my Celexa. But I am back to concentrating on the disapproval of others and all my insecurities. Also not even trying to date or have sex.
Doctor suggested Geodon at a low dose as it shouldn't affect my muscle strength like Abilify, but I don't know if it's worth what it might do to my brain. I fear I might have been permanently altered by the abilify.
I know a lot of these problems are likely psychological, but Ive got schizophrenia and bipoloar in my family in spades, plus I did a fair amount of drugs in college and fear I knocked something loose. That's when all of this fear started. And years of therapy hasn't really made it dissipate by much.
Back to my question...any idea if Geodon with help with all this fear without the side effects from the other AP's? Worth a try?
Thanks
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