Posted by rjlockhart37 on February 8, 2013, at 23:55:20
In reply to Re: Asperger's vs. psychosis » rjlockhart37, posted by hyperfocus on February 8, 2013, at 15:19:44
People on babble have been taking meds for decades. They know what are the heavy-duty meds and what they can do to a person. It's not just your brain you have to worry about -- you're putting your body at serious risk. The doses of meds you're taking I'd more expect to find on a psych word as treatment for severely psychotic patients, not for a twenty-something kid with ASD living at home.
-yes, the heavy duty meds are not really heavy duty for me....they lost their effect, you don't understand...the only thing that sometimes will work is the zyperxa at night...after i put it under my tongue...nasty....and the Nuvigil. I've been on worse heavy duty meds...like Dexedrine 60mg spansules with Xanax 2mg in the morning....xanax at 12pm and another at bedtime ... that is what you call big time heavy meds, and before that i was taking Temazepam WITH xanax at night, both at maxed out doses. It was nice for the time....but it did come to an end. And i have to respect that, and admit the doctor didnt want to treat me anymore...and sent me to a psych ward....they ripped me off ALL my meds. That was the worst time ever in my life, the withdrawl was horrible and they refused to treat the withdrawl....only used vistiril and zyprexa...horrible time...
_________________________________________That's not possible except for things like antibiotics. What is probable is that you are being wrongly and excessively medicated for conditions you do not have
\\its more like tolerance to the meds...this all started in 2010, slowly losing their effect...and noticed even coffee would not take effect. So right now...i don't know what its causing, i pray to God everynight...well jesus christ...and i've been doing it and nothing...but there is something that is undetected and not showing up on tests...because these meds...the prozac they don't work like they did, i keep saying this...they lost their effect. But hopefully....spirit forces will do something...if its jesus christ-holy spirit or lucifer's boys....right now i just need some relief.
___________________________________________Antipsychotics can have significant anti-anxiety effects because of their heavy dopamine antagonism. This is completely different from what people with psychosis experience with their treatment with antipsychotics. Severe anxiety presents as some level of paranoia and delusions but is not psychosis. Severe distress in aspies can manifest as almost hallucinatory hearing of voices in your mind but is NOT psychosis. Zyprexa slows down everything -- including your ability to think and focus and feel. It can be calming at first but it's not a long-term solution. Meds are very limited as to what they can do -- memories and cognition and behaviour interact with each other in very complex ways. The way you think and what you feel is how your brain is wired -- you can't make long-term changes through meds alone.
Yes, antipsychosis meds...they get dopamine out of the places where there too much...see my psychosis is not really considered the real thing...religious obsession will become a preoccupation and it will turn into nasty feeling like spirit forces are watching....not to tell when there's an actual sign of their presence...things moving, random couisidences, telepathy....i was originally reading on spirit guides a while back...and decided to write the arcangel Gabriel a letter for guidance from God...layed in the bed...this image of a blondhaired pale faced with wings.. popped up and conversed with my thoughts...said gabriel was his brother...but he though he'd be a guiding force....and i didnt have to ask who...i knew who he was....its like telepathy with spirit beings...just mental junk that has no sources to back it up. That's just what started this whole event of religious awareness of other forces. It's not really a psych problem. I know its real.
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All this stupid spiritual stuff is just your mind working. Your mind verbalizes opinions and concepts and jumps from one thing to the next very quickly -- when in distress it can seem like you are waging a war inside yourself. It's coming from the same place where you read about and write about video games or meds or things you take an interest in on your own. You could be doing original research in theology or writing or something when you get better.
-i do have my world views but its limited, im not a world guru on anything...i simply state my beliefs...sometimes they go off...make pointless remarks....bad weeds in some sections...maybe i do act like a know it all....but im not, i could get blown away so easy by people who are enriched with knowedge of spiritual stuff and meds here on the boards....and not by the figmant of imagination of my simple world views and beliefs.
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People with Asperger's are commonly misdiagnosed with schizo* because of their flat emotional affect, lack of non-verbal communication, and especially how their mind works. The original term for Asperger's was autistic psychopathy -- to tell you how far the discoverer was from the actual basis of the condition -- but aspies and psychopaths are at the extremes of the neurodevelopmental spectrum. It's not that you don't feel anything -- you actually feel too much. Aspies feel loneliness and fear failure and rejection much more acutely than neurotypical people. Couple that with severe deficits in social cognition and ADD-level inattention and so many other deficits, it makes for an extraordinarily difficult growing up. Depression, anxiety, social phobia, PTSD are all epidemic among aspies, but they must be treated specifically for what they have, not just by blindfire Lamictal and Zyprexa.
-the rejection and distant social cues...that is one of my deeprest pains...i've put it away because its not something to go run and tell someone to solve it...i have to figure how to handle...rejection from people that loved me....its not their fault...and i have figure out what im doing wrong...i do have nights when i lay in the bed and have emotional moments under the pillow....but you know...dwelling on stuff like that causes more sorrow, and then it grows...and then other people who care makes them filled with sorrow....i don't to do that...i don't want any sorrow at all. No burden, no pity parties....even though it does come once and while....
___________________________________________You really have a extensive way you post...im sorry i didnt post back to your post on the video games...sorry about that...ill be scrowling down the boards and have no motivation to talk....have to force myself for just politeness.
It is difficult .... im not 100perct sure i have aspie but ... i hide because i always am scared of being discrimated against...it terrifies me to even think of someone pushing my buttons and then rejecting me....and the effect from the fear is sorrow. So gotta get those both cancelled out.
Thanks Focus.,,
r
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 200mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false beliefs
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