Posted by rjlockhart37 on December 23, 2012, at 19:36:29
..i've had it with waking up everymorning waiting for the Nuvigil to kick in...that's not how life is suppost to be....getting up, coffee, ciggerette, and go to work. That's what most of population does, even though the widely advertised antidepressants for patty sue at home who doesnt feel good and get prescibed cymbalta....but anyways just to release everything....get out, stop being afraid even though failure is a commonly known thing for me. No one knows how to respond to my posts, i feel so alone even though im around people because if they found out the root problem rejection is an issue when vunerable. I'm fear all the time from past failures, and they happen over again, impairments and then people critize me for not trying...when I am trying my fullest to get things jobs done...its like they don't even....its that dehuminzation where someone thinks your object, simplify cause and effect...make jokes im afraid all the time....not look at the root.
I don't know right now...i can't stop meds, and i think silly to think i should too....i don't want be the plain old guy you see everyday...unique...intresting...anything above normal. I live at home...i do study on investments, but to leave this place...people tell me all you have to do is ... drive off... that's not how it is...my skills will fall apart if im on long term goals with no backup....i want to get these stupid crutches, disablity off me. Like it some parasite...i hate it...
well, anyways thanks for reading have a good day...
rnot a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 200mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false beliefs
poster:rjlockhart37
thread:1033654
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