Posted by rjlockhart37 on December 17, 2012, at 16:56:14
....i've been having dreams of still being a senior in high school...and when think about who I am...i'm still in 2005..its vary confusing....who I was in 2005 is a memory but it feels like that is still me...like everytime I think about who I am...the memory that never got lost is still in 2005 its all these years since its past by, i lost my idenity in way, putting on masks....its like a track meet...the gun fires off and everyone takes off....me i took off but I slowed down and stopped while everyone grew and got farther in race...hanging around with no direction. This is painful....i try to repress this feeling, the dreams, but it keeps popping up of the memory of who I was when I started college, it failed miserably...i was put klonopin, and then Ativan because of the emotional distress that was happening back then, i didnt fit in and was behind in alot of things, stayed sedated for a couple years on benzos and now...its all coming back to me before all that bad stuff happened.
Is this like a disorder....having a memory in the past that you think is current? having idenity from the past? after these false beliefs of who you are /// realize that none of them are true.
Help?
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 200mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false beliefs
poster:rjlockhart37
thread:1033200
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20121217/msgs/1033200.html