Posted by rjlockhart37 on December 13, 2012, at 18:08:02
In reply to Re: spiritual healing...?? » rjlockhart37, posted by SLS on December 12, 2012, at 23:49:44
Finding God?
-yes, i've tried to find God since I was 16, searching, asking for signs, reading books, and of course have been disappointed many times along the way till now. Also my intrest in Lucifer is similar but I know for a fact God and LCF are tot diffrent, and lucifer can be a psychopath...i get unstable when I try to read about his doctrine, or even try to directly link my mind to the spirit world. Channeling...but still, i know that God is good, not linked nasty dark torments like the other side.Why are you so frustrated?
-because I want to find something more than what we see in this reality, whats beyond the clothing and fashion, current stuff that will not matter in 100 years from now, not to mention a 1000 years...or till the end of time. I have studied extensivly how to see ways of God, but prayer requests are not awnsered. Yet I have to know that God isnt my best friend, he will do what he thinks is best, but still it makes me mad and frustrated.Not happening quickly enough for you?
-yea....asking for the day to go good, my health to improve, my medication actually taking effect, all these things have not been awnsered in short term and long term, i wouldnt be suprised nor disappointed because I know I have asked many things and they where not awnsered. Kinda like pessimistic/reality thinking....not thinking the best will happen, yet not being bothered when the worst happens.
How will you know when you do find Him?
-- I don't know, i've gone to catholic church santuaries, prayer rooms, anything where a logical thinking that where God resides...went there it was empty.How will I know when I find him? ... that's tough, there's alot of false mental delusion people get thinking they are searching for things...false profacies, false predictions, false enlightenment. I always keep alert so this will not happen.
How do you think your life will change?
--that i don't know either, many times in scripture many of God's people went through suffering, and where persecuted by religious/goverment authority figures and killed. Yet still held the faith of God...in a humble like spirit, not all of them....today you see Joyce Meyer and TBN and various christain networks and pastors who teach we can be confident because the lord is on our side....like a godlike mindset. It's confusing, no doubt about it. I feel if I do find god to obey his commandments....like it states everywhere in the old testement, and some people in the modern day say we can sin because where saved by grace...systematic belief that we can do what we want and Jesus will save us. Doesnt add up how I see it. But....yeaHow would you feel if God doesn't answer your prayers immediately or in the way you would like for him too?
-- well, I have to go with what happens, its makes me vary angry, with something that is urgent and he doesnt do anything, like sits there and plays games and procrastinates...hell yes it makes me mad, i could yell at the sky and say thanks lord, you really helped me alot...everything is suppost to be in your hands and you did nothing, and usally i don't expect a response back either....but I have to know humans can't see everything in the future.Would you keep praying and loving him anyway?
-- yea....i get mad, and even want to curse him at the sky...for doing nothing...but in my heart I do want to find god, the anger will fade...and maybe sometime in the near future maybe not 80years from now, which i won't be suprised if it is....but, ill find him. But I don't want to find him in false enlighment. I do think many times when I pray, im praying to nothing, just a bunch of words going into the wind and fading. Still, as frustrating and anger causing as it can be, god has his ways....thanks for asking
r
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 200mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false beliefs
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