Posted by schleprock on November 27, 2012, at 21:54:58
In reply to Re: Lou's response-lytbrgayd, posted by Phil on November 27, 2012, at 19:53:13
I would say that having three panic attacks (one which resulted in me almost losing consciousness and collapsing to floor, not to mention the trip to the hospital) within a couple of weeks of starting a new medication would make the culprit obvious. Then came the atenolol and the clonazepam dependence and long-term agoraphobia, then the 9 months after stopping those drugs of the illusion that I just might be back to normal, then the last six months of back and forth melancholic depression hell and probable overmedication. There is absolutely no way I will ever be convinced that any medication other than Nortriptyline has and will continue to cause me seemingly irrevocable harm.
And I can never release myself from accountability for this. I was feeling perfectly fine, and had no need for any drug augmentation, let alone the supplantation that I regretably agreed to. All I had to do was say "no," I'm fine. Such a simple thing to do. But like so many other people on this thread, I was under the illusion (one could even say a sort of "guarantee" by Dr. R) that a little experimentation couldn't hurt. That was tragically not the case for me, and every day I have to live with the consequences of my own mistake and delusion that the human brain, in all cases, has a miraculous resilliancy when it comes to the chemicals it absorbs.
Make no mistake, we live in the worst of all possible worlds.
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