Posted by ChicagoKat on November 11, 2012, at 20:29:31
I really need help. Any advice would be so appreciated. I really feel like I should be in the hospital right now, but I just cannot be...I have to go to Arizona on Sat. for a week to see my family, and I really HAVE to go; my ticket cost 800 bucks, and what's more important, my family will disown me if I don't go. I've already cancelled two trips this past year b/c I was feeling so bad.
Until this past tuesday, I was on Nardil 60mg/day + Nortriptyline...I honestly forget the dose of that one...but I was experiencing bad anxiety (which is weird, I know), plus absolutely no relief from my dysphoria. So pdoc suggested we switch to Parnate and drop the Nortryp. since it didn't seem to be doing anything. So I stopped the Nardil and Nortryp, but the pharmacy had to order the Parnate, said next day, no prob. This was Tuesday. They finally get it in, I think it was Friday, but then it turns out my insurance won't cover it. By this time I was going through hell withdrawing from Nardil. So over the weekend I started it back up, but only at 30mg/day, a dose which does seem to help my anxiety. But obviously not my dysphoria, which has become extreme. On top of that, I'm just not sleeping, period. I have ambien which does jack for me, and I have gabapentin which also does nothing for me; I just build up tolerance to drugs so quickly. I have no benzos, but even if I did, same story, I'm tolerant. The *only* thing that helps me sleep is Elavil, at least 50mg hs...but if I go back on that, what do I do for my unrelenting dysphoria, which is quite frankly crippling atm? I obviously don't have time for a wash before Sat, and I wouldn't be able to handle a wash if I couldn't be in the hospital or at home. The ONLY thing that has helped my dysphoria at all this past year is Ritalin, but there's no way my pdoc is gonna go for Nardil plus Ritalin plus Elavil. Knowing him, he probably would not go for even Nardil plus just Ritalin.
So I'm desperate; I have no idea what to do. I cannot make this trip in the shape I'm in right now, but I've just got to find a way to manage it. Obviously, I'm gonna call my pdoc about this tomorrow, but if anyone has any ideas *please* share them...like I said, if it weren't for this dang trip I would go to the hospital, but I just can't, and my only hope is a one-shot call to my pdoc. It would really help if any of you have any ideas I might suggest to him. To sum it up, right now I'm on Nardil 15mg bid, and that's about it. Thanks in advance.
KatIve got a really bad disease
Its got me begging on my hands and knees
So take me to emergency
Cause somethin seems to be missing
Somebody take the pain away
Its like an ulcer bleeding in my brain
poster:ChicagoKat
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