Posted by b2chica on October 25, 2012, at 13:44:07
In reply to Re: Generic Zyprexa is cheep everywhere now!!, posted by b2chica on October 25, 2012, at 12:13:59
man. within the last 15min i literally felt my mood drop into a sink-hole.
i feel face heavy, hard to smile literally i have a tremor when i'm smiling cuz its hard to do. want to ly down and stare at a wall.Z-man. i was sorely mistaken. i will certainly take my zyprexa tonight.
i had actually decided that BEFORE my mood hit bottom. i figured i wanted pdoc to see me at my best so he would most likely take away something.but this certainly signifies that i am not in any state of remission to try going off zyprexa right now.
Fat or no, i know what its like in the pit of dispair and with a potential job interview (a KEY job that i've been hoping for) next week or the week after its no time to be playing.***************************
i just wish dear hubby didnt pick on my state of being so much.
he complains if i spend even a dime of money, he says im 'addicted' to my meds and i dont need them. (he has NO idea how dead i'd be if i went off all of them and not from withdrawl), and he complains...Everytime i eat. he looks at me and says "really...MORE cereal?" "do you REALLY need that second helping?", "You haven't even stopped eating tonight." (even though i'm eating fruit at night, or cereal. i mean really? who has gained 50lbs by eating to many helpings of cereal. i dont think THATS the culprit.
screw it. i'm drinking tonight.
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
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