Posted by rjlockhart37 on October 23, 2012, at 21:54:56
i may skip taking it tonight, when my mom gives it to me ill put it under my tongue and take it out. Listen, I know its not smart to stop it but please listen ... when my mind was on fire last week, the zyprexa completly wiped the insane thoughts out, it calmed it...and I went to sleep for long hours. Its vary well on calming terror or better term fear... from the thoughts....
but also at the same time with me...i lose that feeling of intrest of studying hours after hours on the internet about things im intrested in...of course you may know that lucifer has been a big project lately to study...
if I don't take zyprexa or any antipsychotic...my mind begins to feel much intrest and life, similar to feeling like I did on dexedrine exept theres no psychostimulant action such as repetive tasks, stimulant effects...but the overfocus feeling is vary similar. I actually am glad...because maybe my mind adapted to the situation where I can't take a traditional stimulant and it started to do its own actions to restore dopamine levels. But at the same time....delusion, and fear will come after not taking antipsychotic medication for a couple days...just I feel like sleeping or feel dull, not active, my thoughts are not alive.
Still, I wouldnt mind finding a shorter acting one. Something I could take at night and only lasted for about 6 hours then my mind could be back to life when I wake up in the morning.
It's not really a serious issue that its effecting my life....i just want to keep the heighted awareness feeling about both reality and spirit issues. Zyprexa usally makes all that go away, and makes me feel boring in life...
thanks for reading maybe Ill post tommorow and see what happens
rnot a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 300mg
Fanapt 16mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false lights of enlightenment
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