Posted by Phil on October 18, 2012, at 11:16:00
that mental illness doesn't exist and that I have a website that will tell me when I'll die from taking meds, I must cop to my thirty years of bad judgement. So, I've been told that I'm dying and I have to ask my doc to get me off this stuff.
I may need real names and phone numbers of people here to give them updates on how things are going. I have a self-deprecating humor and wouldn't mind laughing at my decades long illusion.
I'll start a website for parents who have child with non mental illness, like paranoid schizophrenia to please take that child off of all meds now because they are treating nothing.
I'll even call the Queen, Kay Redfield Jamison and say stop that Lithium because it will kill her.
Charlie Pride Britney Spears and all of the other posers saying they are living an illusion.
I'll ask Obama to have the FDA med section shut down, boarded up, and close that part of the agency. Billions of dollars would be saved and we would all realize that it was all a farce.
I think like in the 20th century all asylums were closed with the invention of Thorazine that it was just a fluke. Sure people were in bad shape, maybe is was the flu.
I feel a lightness of being just knowing I'll be off the meds. And killing myself would be a huge bonus because well at least I didn't take that poison anymore.
But if I get sick I can buy a .40 caliber gun with hollowpoints and not blow my brains out but my whole head off. Or that gun my brother looked at where point blank was 27' away, that would really get the job done.
Because like the Mash song, suicide is painless sometimes as more people tell me I'm wrong and I think I'm not and drop meds, well why live?
But sometimes I feel like a ten year old that has been bullied(stop those meds)for being different, she goes home and hangs herself.
I get it that people don't like meds Of course they are doing fine,so I don't push them to take them. But reminders are everywhere that I am wrong. I may be.
But I think that years people were told, me included, mind your own business.
When my brother had lung cancer a few years ago maybe I should have said those one time $25000 treatments would kill him because oncologists were clueless compared to shrinks.
But I respected his decision. Why? Because he was my big brother and if I could have stopped meds and died so that he could live I would have done it.
I have to respect other views about psychiatry because I believe many of them. If anyone is waiting for me to say that all of these drugs are miracle pills and won't harm you, I'm not your guy.
I have no belief in God but millions do. I rely on science and science will one day get a handle on mental illness.
Sometimes I feel like a 10 year old trying to sort things out during the day and crying all night. I'm in a forest and I don't know where I am. But I see a man coming towards me and I'm so happy. So I'm crying because I don't know where home
is. He just says you're not lost. Lost is an illusion and walks away.
So, I look for help because I don't feel good. Another man comes along and asks if I've ever seen a doctor? I say no. He says good and walks away.I'm back where I grew up with no one sober and I was the parent. So, I told my mother to keep drinking because she was going to die in October anyway.
So the ten year old with no support and I was scared everyday grew into a man who was scared everyday. No one listened to me all those many years ago and nobody listens now. In fact, I'm told I'm wrong.
I've always tried to be by people's side if they wanted it. It wasn't my job to diagnose them. My job was to hold them as they cried and to reassure them, whether I believe what they were suffering through or not, and in my own way tell them, I will never leave you or forsake you.
But I know one thing and I may be repeating myself. People IRL that say it's nothing stop those meds. They know nothing about MI, they are so dysfunctional themselves it' Best advice I;ve ever gotten.s laughable. The time is here when parents of an obviously sick child are hearing meds are bad from people. They take the meds away. When they wake up and go to wake up the kid they love so much hanging from a ceiling fan, Ten years old and dead.
As my mother told me when I told her the neighbors were really weird, Philip, mind your own business.
One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star.
Friedrich Nietzsche
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