Posted by Phil on October 16, 2012, at 13:01:19
In reply to deathometers are not thermometers » Phil, posted by zazenducke on October 16, 2012, at 10:40:48
Haven't noticed side effects over the last 30 years on meds, thanks for the info.
Hostility? At Lou's post maybe? You don't have to take meds to get angry. The post was one of the worst I've seen here. Is he god? That upset me and it still upsets me.
And yes Z, my brain my choice. I know that and ask you to keep that in mind.
I don't like meds, shrinks, big pharma or little drug stores. But I like them all better than being curled up in bed for two weeks pleading with god to let me die.
Maybe I should take mineral, vitamins, colon cleansing, acupuncture, and herbs because people say these things help them. The odd thing is, I never met one of these people. I have a friend I've known since we were 6 years old. She's is currently trying mineral, vitamin type therapy with her shrink and the other doctors help. Do I say B... don't do it. Nope, I call her everyday and say, chin up, I'm praying for you. I care for you and lets hope this does the trick.
In fact, there are times I pray for everyone with MI that one day there will be a cure or treatments that have the side effects of a vitamin.
I truly believe that I would have never needed pills if I had not been exposed at a very young age to things that no child should witness. After I worked with the best therapist I've ever known, she was the one that introduced me to a psychiatrist.
This road has been hard but it's only made worse when someone tells me I'm wrong and you will pay for it. I've paid quite a lot already. If we met, and I don't even know if you're a man or a woman, doesn't matter. You would have no way to tell if I was sick and on meds. I can talk to anyone, I can make them laugh, and I hope I leave them with the feeling that I respect them. Everyone deserves that even people that try to treat their mental illness with pills. We do the best we know how to do.
Would I tell Michael J Fox that he will get brain damage from taking those meds and he should stop. Of course not because you see the before and after. Why would I say the same to someone with mental illness. Perhaps it's because no one can see it therefore it doesn't exist.
I go to a huge forum that has nothing to do with MI. I wrote my story and posted my picture underneath. The next day I was horrified and embarrassed that I did it. But I logged on and was shocked to tears at the 30 responses and multiple pm's and I'm still getting pm's two months later. A guy gave me his # and email so we talked. He ended the conversation with, Phil I'd rather lose two limbs than have this, my wife won't take 5 minutes to learn and she won't talk to me about it.
I wrote in my blog about it because it hit me hard.
If you can't tell I like to write but I write humor for fun. The last story I wrote I had a friend in NYC and another here in Austin say it's time to get a publisher.
So I don't think I have brain damage, I have heart damage. And that's where the humor comes from. OK, better stop.
Thanks for listening.One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star.
Friedrich Nietzsche
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