Posted by rjlockhart37 on October 6, 2012, at 23:10:04
In reply to Re: im so depressed... » rjlockhart37, posted by vbs on October 6, 2012, at 17:38:14
no im not disability...the ego is reluctant to do it because I want to make some kind of impression im self sufficient yet the truth is my behaviors are all over the place...not logical, disorganized. Even if I had a good job, people have always known me as the person who loses many things in one day and it repeats...and saying funny wierd things, people told me to smoke pot to calm down...like a joke... that's just me.
The pipedreams of my mind...are still there, and I have made attempts by enrolling myself in acting school and taking vigiourously getting envolved, its just when I was pulled off my effective meds...the stimulants, things went down fall. I can't blame anyone, I should of figured it out. Now im just in dark place in life...still it will take some time to get to a normal place in life...the pipedreams will have to wait until im ready and able to do them.
If I really take a look at myself right now in the past months ... lowlife, and sad... but still I do choose to live and press the accelertor when its ready to go.
till then....no boasting from me...
r
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 300mg
Fanapt 16mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false lights of enlightenment
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