Posted by brynb on September 23, 2012, at 15:10:05
Has anyone else experienced this? I don't drink (and never really did), but I used to abuse a lot of pills, in particular, benzos.
Nowadays (and for a while), I take my meds as prescribed. I don't use abusable meds anymore, and I never use illegal substances (it's been years). As needed, I'll use benzos, but not often. When I used a lot of pills in the past, I would have blackouts--much like, if not the same as, what alcoholics so often have--and not remember full days and moments at a time. It felt like amnesia. This happened to me on Z drugs, and Gabapentin, too, which I stopped taking earlier this year as it was making me manic.
I've been in a funk the past week and have been physically ill (with bronchitis and a sinus infection, so I'm on antibiotics). I made the mistake a few nights ago of taking a painkiller (90 mg of oxycodone--a lot for someone who is small and not used to it), but I wasn't feeling well, was down and in my apartment feeling like I needed to "check-out". It made me very high, manic and I blacked out. I can't remember that day or night at all. I crashed, slept and fell into a worse depression almost immediately. Now I feel anxious and guilty, slow and out of it.
Is this indicative of anything, such as brain damage? I'm worried. I must stress, a friend gave me the pills, and it was just this one night, an isolated incident as I very rarely (if ever) take anything that isn't prescribed. I haven't experienced this since Neurontin (and before that, it was a while as I haven't abused meds in years). I understand how alcohol affects the GABA receptors, and how these drugs work in a related way. I obviously know to avoid ANYTHING that isn't prescribed to me at this point, especially as the results are devastating to my state of being. But, really? From 3 pills as an isolated incident? What's going on here?
Feedback?
Thanks.
poster:brynb
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