Posted by sheilac on August 11, 2012, at 8:19:00
In reply to Re: Calling Eric or Scott/ ANYONE... » Sheilac, posted by SLS on August 10, 2012, at 22:55:17
Scott, I didn't take the stimulant today and I still feel cranky and irritable.
I actually feel better on the stimulant.
The irritability didn't occur until I upped the Lithium.
Same on Seroquel - irritability.
Does my reaction to these meds mean that maybe I am not bipolar? Maybe I am just mildly ADD with anxiety?
The scary thing is that without taking Lithium or Seroquel or any of the other mood stabilizers I am normal, just have anxiety, which leads to some depression and irritability.
BUT - if I were in a hospital setting and they put me on 600mg of Lithium and I became violent or rageful, they would just keep upping the dose until I was a zombie. That is scary!!!
In a hospital setting putting me on a high dose of Triletpal or Depakote I would become suicidal. THAT is scary!
So, for me, I can't help but think it is the DRUG.
There must be some people that a little goes a long way. It can't be possible that the "theraputic dose" is the ONLY way that these meds work.
The more experience I have with these meds, the more I distrust doctors.
Or maybe I have been misdiagnosed.
Or maybe a chemical gets shuts down in my brain when I take a decent dose of Lithium, Seroquel, Trileptal, Seroquel.
Am I the only person in the world that experiences depression and irritability on these drugs?
Something just doesn't add up.
I was hoping someone would say that the reason I am experiencing these feelings on these meds is because they are effecting THESE brain chemicals, or that I need to add another med to make up for THIS missing chemical now.
I don't know. I'm sure for a true bipolar who takes 1200mg of Lithium, it works great for them. For me, I would be suicidal. THAT just doesn't seem right.
Does anyone know WHY this is?
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