Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on July 30, 2012, at 23:17:45
you know I don't know if I've actually shared the main thing that errupts vary rarely....the horrid feeling of rejection but i've already programeed a new program to feel diffrent when it happens. My doctors have told me it was my choice to let that happen to me. Their high minded lowlives...serisouly they have more mental schemes in history of civilization.
I will meet someone...it may be years and then I change and move on and whoever it is will change too and move on. It's just that I ca't do this sick relationship game, but the cause of it is mental obstructions and choices I made. I feel pain of stabbing feeling, people will be concerned for a temporary period of time but they will evnetually leave and will not come back. I myself can't stand self pity...and saying woe is me, poor me, believe I want my body dead and some other people too.. over all choices but the reason I've caused to exist is because of the Judgement Day of God from the horrible lake of fire, non stup burning.
I don't really know what else to say without telling that this is intense suffering. Don't feel sorry...its best if all this is just numb.
"It seems strange my life should end in such a terrible place, but I apologized to no one" - Alan Moore.
am not a scholar but I do understand distress.
Medications:
Prozac 60mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Lamictal 100mg
Clonodine .1mg X 3
Nuvigil 250mg
I encourage you avoid false lights of enlightment.
M
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