Posted by bleauberry on July 23, 2012, at 17:43:18
In reply to Fleeting suicidal thoughts, posted by CaffeinePoet on July 22, 2012, at 21:11:46
Just a few things to keep in perspective. First, this is the absolute worst economy we've ever experienced since the Great Depression. Not just you, but millions upon millions share the exact same story as you. Everyone is afraid to call it for what it is, but by all mathematical definitions it is a depression not a recession, and it was made a lot worse beginning 3 years ago.
You have a leader of the country who is not friendly to business, judging from his behaviors, words, and actions, unless it is a business where there is an interest in, such as GM, but you didn't work at GM. Washington is not your friend at this time and has made it very difficult for any business to be born or to grow so as to hire you.
I see very little, actually nothing, that was your fault here. Everything that happened was beyond your control. It wasn't you.
As for God, keep in mind, we live in the shadow of the valley of death. For sure there are lots of pleasures on the planet, but every single living thing will deteriorate, die, and rot. No escape. This is not our home. It is a temporary stop during the "human experience". What reallly matters is the spiritual kingdom that Jesus followers will see. If one believes the bible which I do.
Until that time, this earth is temporarily under the authority of the evil ones. Deception, illness, pain....anything to keep your eyes off of Jesus. The problem for them is, for those who do talk to Jesus every day, such hardships backfire....they only make the person stronger and even closer to God. I felt that.
The Reagan years through the Clinton years, you would have had so many job offers. Good times. The current situation is the opposite of that. It started to go sour under Bush due to war expenses and he did not stick to conservative economics. Obama took a floundering situation and made it much worse. People are suffering everywhere. You are not alone.
While you see people with nice cars and houses, what you don't see is the millions upon millions of americans who lost theirs!
Success is not an earthly thing, imo. Those people with the money and cars, they don't realize it but all of their possessions are merely on loan. They can't keep them and they can't take them with them. And if those things happen to be their gods, those folks are doomed. Can you imagine sacrificing eternity for some sort of earthly pleasure that only lasts a few decades?
God does want you to feel better and He does want you to succeed. That will only happen voluntarily, on your part, because He does not view us as puppets on a string. In other words, place the entire issue on His shoulders and admit it has become too much for you. Actually, everything is too much for us. We can't even make our heart beat one time, but He does it for us all day long. Place it all in His hands and ask Jesus for some help. Ask for wisdom in the matter.
Anyway, you are wrong. You are good enough. More than good enough. You are living in a lousy time of history. There is a guide though who knows the best way to navigate the dangerous waters, can make miracles happen, small ones and big ones, and is our way through the mess. His name is Jesus. I did not know how to pray, someone told me just talk to Him. Seems to work. But don't insult Him with small requests, make them big! He can do all things.
> Thirtysomething woman here. I lost a fairly good job in late 2009, went back to school, got a Bachelor's degree, learned programming skills, and finally got a good professional job one year ago in July 2012.
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> In late February, I was let go from the job -- I was doing a good job but I was disliked socially, the only woman on the team and ten years older than my coworkers. Honestly I worked my *ss off there, coming in at 6 a.m. some days. Not appreciated.
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> Now, six months later, still no good job. Working at a call center for a rate that qualifies me to be on food stamps. Have hustled to volunteer, build my portfolio, network, all those good things.
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> The lesson? I am just not good enough. It is a lie that you can turn your life around in this society. Get it right the first time -- graduate at age 21, and build those corporate connections while you are young and pretty or it is GAME OVER.
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> God, the universe, or whoever has decided that I can't have a nice middle class life like so many others have. I am having to put off marriage, having children, all the goods of middle class life. I am not materialistic but I do want to pay my rent, my student loans, and have some stability before having kids.
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> So -- here it is. I am tired of working for nothing, I am tired of endless poverty. I feel like God is just letting me struggle for nothing, for no reward, endlessly.
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> Decision: If it is all the way to next February with no professional job for me, I must find a way to kill myself, as painlessly as possible. I have already told God that if s/he is going to let me just struggle nonstop for nothing.
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> Those around me will suffer, but they are succeeding in life. They have cars, homes, children. They get to use their skills. I am just a financial burden to society and I am suffering for doing work that is far below my capacity.
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