Posted by Christ_empowered on July 19, 2012, at 19:11:39
I'm 28. I passed a psych evaluation a couple months ago. I sent off a couple emails to an ex-shrink who works at a college I attended. The emails were somewhat angry, but I talked about my progress, my spirituality, and my ongoing transformation. Another shrinks tried to have me committed because I expressed anger over how he treated me.
I do take3 Abilify. 30mgs tablet, when I'm feeling agitated and the voices get to me. I also do the Orthomolecular thing--niacinamide, b-100, c, all that. Helps.
I haven't gone back to the mental health place in maybe 2, 3 months. Cancelled my appointments. I just...don't want to be a patient anymore. I'm fairly certain I've had involuntary ECT. I've experienced HIPPA violations, drug addiction, multiple diagnoses, drug-induced stupidity, and now...I'm done.
I just don't want to be a patient anymore, you know? I read about old school former patients who would get out there, do stuff, take a Thorazine or whatever they had back then when the stress got to them. Sounds good to me. And Abilify is...great. I mean, 30 is a lot--particularly for everyday--but 30 for agitation when needed calms me down w/o making me stupid.
I'm just...over it now. I honestly believe--and please don't give me flack over this one--I honestly believe that God, for whatever reason, chose to save me. I apparently have a decently high IQ and I'm able to do things and I'm more sociable and I'm not interested in more treatment and more $$$ and...I'm done.
Also, docs are done with me. I took one shrink to the medical board. For some reason, I had to fill out forms to have everybody in this state who had treated me issued subpoenas. Fine. They won't treat me, no private practice shrinks around here will treat me, even if my parents are willing to pay cash for a visit every 8-12 weeks. I don't require benzos or stimulants, so public health *was* cool, until I realized: they're paternalistic as hell. The talk therapy is about taking your meds and feeling better and...I don't know. I'm done.
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