Posted by BakuNYC on May 16, 2012, at 23:36:21
In reply to excessive feeling of unstable, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on May 10, 2012, at 17:41:55
>I feel like im 10 years old in 25 year old body, and I have exessive thoughts of being abandoned, yet no one is abandoning me...but its in my mind that I just have got to let this out somehow. I usally never cry at all, most of my memories are frozen so they arnt radiating pain, my mind did that to block out these painful memories, yet really its not memories...its is too hard to describe. I had this once before in 2005...
> rjWhen this similar episode of 2005 arose, I am curious..
1. do you refer to it as similar and thus link the two because in both instances you felt an abstract feeling of abandonment?2. In general, did you feel that, in either one or both of the episodes, the emotional reaction was overwhelming and seemingly more pronounced that it 'should' have been [taking into account any stressors which you might have linked to the onset or exacerbation of the two episodes you mention], and if so, did you experience paranoia during either or both episodes for which you could not find any explanation.
3. Did the episodes begin and end rapidly?
4. Although you mention that the episodes were marked by strong emotional response otherwise unusual to your otherwise stable affect, did you ever get a feeling that it was hard to explain or describe the nature of these emotional responses definitively and clearly [even in your own thoughts, while trying to understand the reason/root/cause of the responses in the privacy of your own mind]? To put it another way, did you feel that a certain ambiguity about it all seem to linger during the episodes, and that, whereas your emotional state was easy to describe, the actual reason behind the disturbance seem to be evasive or else nonexistent EVEN THOUGH you did not feel you were in a haze of confusion or merely experiencing a sort of manic or psychotic state which was most likely the trigger of the emotional outpourings?
LASTLY - did either or both of the episodes happen to coincide with initiation of lamotrigine therapy, or dose adjustment of that medication (or any other which you list as current medications taken)
- I apologize for the interrogation; I do not ask merely out of curiosity - I ask because I have experienced something vaguely similar to that which you are describing and (due, perhaps, to my somewhat biased opinion) are seemingly having difficulty in describing for reasons that might be ambiguous to you.
I hope you can find the time to satisfy my curiosity, in any case.
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