Posted by sheilac on May 15, 2012, at 17:59:14
In reply to Re: Scott - Re: Wellbutrin yuk - old meds..., posted by SLS on May 15, 2012, at 16:09:00
From the time I was a child I can remember what I now know is anxiety and panic attacks. I have had them all my life. Then following the anxiety would come depression and sometimes rage with it.
My life has been a viscous circle of anger/rage/ depression and anxiety.
The doc wants me on 300mg of Trileptal a day, plus 150 - 300mg of Lithium for the help of depression. At first when I was experiencing anxiety and rage episodes Trileptal worked great. Sometimes I would even go up to 450 or 600mg.
Now having been on just 300mg of Trileptal a day for the past few months I have fallen into a depression. I thought if I cut back on the Trileptal that would take away some of the medication induced depression. I have experienced depression with Lithium and Depakote as well when they were used as my mood stabilizers. I guess mood stabilizers just make me depressed. At first they are great to put out the fire, then after a few months the depression sets in.
My doc suggestion Wellbutrin, even though that has made me manic in the past. I think what I experienced today wasn't mania, but extreme anxiety from the Wellbutrin. Maybe I wouldn't have experienced that if I was on my full dose of Trileptal and Lithium? I don't know. I just know that the Trileptal seemed to be the cause of the depression, thus, my thinking was to cut the Trileptal in half to 75mg 2x a day. This DID NOT work with the Wellbutrin.
So, I am stuck with feeling flat and depressed on the Trileptal and throwing some Wellbutrin into the mix, which probably induced severe anxiety.
I was only on Wellbutrin XL 150 for one day and it was the worst day ever.
Do I go back to my high dose of Trileptal and get depressed and then thrown in some Wellbutrin to get me moving? Seems like a case of taking one drug to counteract the effects of another drug.
I thought Trileptal would HELP my depression. It only helped my rage and anger and kept me flat and with no emotion. I tried Lexapro but that made me tired and flat as well.
I'm kind of afraid of taking Wellbutrin anymore unless I am on a higher dose of Trileptal. And then I wonder if I will experience depression.
Or do I drop the Wellbutrin and cut back on the Trileptal until my mood says I need more? And use the Trileptal accordingly?
I wish I has some mania right now. The depression (maybe just low mood - which is what a mood stabilizer is supposed to do) is awful. I can't get much lower.
What do you think? Lower my Trileptal without the Wellbutrin and go from there for a week or so. OR Go up on my Trileptal and add in Wellbutrin for motivation and depression?
At this point, even though the Geodon caused heart palpatations, I miss the Geodon as my mood stabilizer. But that was a weird drug.
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