Posted by g_g_g_unit on April 17, 2012, at 0:52:46
In reply to Re: Multiple years on MAOIs and my conclusions » g_g_g_unit, posted by SLS on April 16, 2012, at 7:54:31
> Can you describe this impulsivity?
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> Impulsivity might be function of the lifting of depression and a rush to feel the sensation of reward that is still new to you. Then again, maybe not. If it is, it will take some time to find balance and learn to defer reward and gratification while more fully deliberating decisions.
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> - ScottHmm, well I do have prior addictive/impulsive traits like the original poster which I've found have been reactivated. Sadly, this has meant less control over alcohol intake, so I've decided to avoid it for the time being.
I guess I might describe it as increased social motivation (and decreased rejection sensitivity), which for me goes hand-in-hand with alcohol. Another example is - I recall being pursued by a girl who was theoretically 'wrong' for me while depressed. I deflected all of her invitations etc. because I felt so little self-worth and ultimately she gave up. On the other hand, while my sense of self-worth hasn't really altered, I've found myself quite intensely pursuing a different girl who's 'wrong' for me while on Parnate.
Much of my time spent depressed is in fact devoted to a 'rush to feel the sensation of reward' (i.e. food/TV binges etc.), so my hope is that, like you say, Parnate might allow for some balance.
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