Posted by Vincent_QC on March 11, 2012, at 11:07:02
In reply to Re: heart issues, posted by papillon2 on March 10, 2012, at 17:17:30
> > > [my heart rate] was unstable when I first started Nortriptyline and again after each dose increase. The instability is no longer there, but the tachycardia has remained.
> > >
> >
> > Hummm ok... normal I guess... if you feel comfortable with the 95 pulse rate it's good then ;-)
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> Comfortable would be the wrong word. It is uncomfortable, but I put up with it (and other side effects) because:
> (1) my depression is treatment-resistant -- very few anti-depressants have sufficient/any anti-depressant effect for me;
> (2) the only other anti-depressant which has helped recently is Remeron, which has side effects that are more unpalatable for me (weight gain, hunger, associated anxiety & risk of ED relapse) and even then it is not as effective as Nortriptyline in some ways;
> (3) the alternative -- untreated/undertreated depression of a severity which is life-threatening and involves a total loss of functioning -- is not an option.
>
> If I were to write off every medication that has side effects, well, I'd either be dead or back where I started: so depressed I am unable to walk, talk, eat, drink or think about anything other than jumping in front of freight trains. That is no way to live.Hi,
I understand what you mean even if i'm not depress or never felt suicidal since the thing I fear the most is death...I think that when you find the good med(s) you have to stick with it or them even if they have side-effects. I always want to cry and feel very angry at me cause back in 2009 the Paxil was perfect for the panic disorder but I stop it cause of the weight gain!!! Big mistake, I think it's better to have 50 pounds more than to stay anxious all the time and homebound and even feel bad at home... In my case it's special for the weight gain cause I had a gastric by-pass to loose weight cause I had morbid obesity for a part of my life and the weight gain wasnt an option for me BUT now I just want to kick my head on the wall cause I stop it...anyway...
I only wanted to point out the fact that before I had no problems with meds in general...I never had problems before 2010 (well don't want also to write off every medication I try and the side-effects and the fact that the Parnate almost kill me 3 times but well now meds who had near 0 side-effect on me in the past are impossible to take again, I know fears and anxiety can make the side-effects 10000000 worse, but I think it's something else on me, something change in my brains and my body since I never felt that way in the past and I guess I will never know what happen really with me, a little bit hopeless, being stuck in a public health system lead to long waiting list to see specialist Docs and have tests to rull out possible real diseases, probably POST (postural tachycardia) with reactive hypoglicemia, bad blood supply on the body who lead to chronic chest pain, numbness of left arm, headache, dizziness, jaw and neck pain, blueish hands and feet, extreme fatigue, insomnia, IBS-D, name them, have so many symptoms who can be linked to real disease that it's hard to imagine that it's only anxiety related, it can be that... I never see or hear a story about someone who had somatic complaints about digestive problems with bloating, pain and constipation who lead to 1 intestinal obstruction + 1 bile duck obstruction and 2 surgeries to recover and still have the same digestive symptoms... anxiety can't do that...that's what I think...and I don't dramatize here, that's what I live each day...
Don't think that I just want to stay untreated or take meds cause I fear them...I stay in a kind of untreated state cause I can't cope with the increase anxiety the meds are giving to me that's it... I already feel like I will die all the time with the so many symptoms I have each day and adding a med, who at 10% of the regular dosage, will send me to the emergency room ( Lexapro 2,5 mg back in january 2010 with synusal tachycardia... even if I took it at 40 mg back in 2008 with no problem) is not an option even if I know that a med without side-effect is almost impossible to find, I think that one day my Doc will find the good med for me or the good combo... For now the best I can do is to continue to take my 8 mg of Klonopin + 0.25 mg of Xanax + 10 mg of Valium each day with no success to decrease my anxiety and just stuck with addiction and rebound anxiety.
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