Posted by SLS on February 7, 2012, at 6:53:16
In reply to Re: update » SLS, posted by g_g_g_unit on February 7, 2012, at 6:17:29
I understand the relationship thing. I'm resistant to even look while I remain depressed. A new issue has arisen. Now that I appear to be on my way towards a robust improvement, I am afraid that, despite my feeling better now, I would not be able to guarantee someone that it would continue. Who would want to invest in a roulette wheel? I need six drugs to be able to function. I am afraid that no one with a future would want to take a chance on someone who had none for over 3 decades, and for whom there is a history of treatment refractoriness. I have my eye on an attractive doctor whom I have recently started using as a PCP. I don't even want to bother asking her out for the rejection it would surely end up in. Even if she didn't like the way I wear my hair, I would blame it on her knowing about my medical history. I won't even try to describe the demoralization of having gained so much weight due to the drugs that I must take. I know that this extra weight is a turn-off. I am just not marketable.
This whole depression thing sucks.
- ScottSome see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.- George Bernard Shaw
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