Posted by g_g_g_unit on January 26, 2012, at 21:45:56
In reply to Re: Do these symptoms/reactions sound familiar? » g_g_g_unit, posted by phidippus on January 26, 2012, at 19:51:25
> I think your suicidal thoughts are part of the OCD. You don't seem suicidal.
Maybe you're right, but I do (or did) have a defined plan and did overdose once while on Lexapro as a cry-for-help. I suppose my behaviour is closer to nihilism in that - in the absence of any way to self-actualize - I refuse to engage with life at all.
> How do you want to feel? Do you have a concept of what normal should feel like?
Um, well, I would like my OCD to magically vanish, but that obviously isn't going to happen.
I would like to experience reward and a desire to engage with things, like I used to prior to depression. I would like to be able to think clearly. I would like to be able to read and concentrate and pay attention without feeling like I'm either viciously overstimulated or drowning in brain fog.
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