Posted by B2chica on January 13, 2012, at 8:01:37
In reply to Depression or Oppression?, posted by SLS on January 4, 2012, at 23:46:44
scott. the way i feel now. i could not have worded it better.
i feel so helpless for this lost world around me. as well as for myself and where i am at in my useless and unsucessful life.
i am stuck in the forms i have created. i feel so deeply for the loss of those around me.
i want more for my life but have no means to achieve it.
as well as my newly gained intelligence that these new medications have let sprout through. i have created this appearance of an *ss, rather than an eagle that i can be.
so those around me supress my eagle works assuming them to be repeat of others or nonsense.
i try to write but i am so non focused i cant finish any of the stories or poems ive written.
i'm at a loss.
all i want to do now is take something that will once again dull my brain.
i love the knowledge and ideas and relations my brain creates now, but no one else shares that feeling. i am purely alone at this point.
if i can od, just enough to killsome of my brain...well right now that would seem like a blessing.
i'm also tired of feeling the utter pain and suffering of everyone else. i cant seem to even turn on the news these days, for fear of bursting into tears.there is so much tragedy, but selfishly i not only cry for them but the uselessness i feel for myself in being unable to do thing ONE to make any chnages....
poster:B2chica
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